Jen, knowing you makes these hard to read - you are a real live person and you're my friend. It makes me so sad to know you're hurting and nothing will ever take that hurt away. But please know that we have never forgotten Spencer, he brought us into your life and for that, I'm so grateful.
I know if you keep telling Scarlett about Spencer, she will understand one day. Babies are surprisingly therapeutic little creatures to talk to - they listen because they're happy you're talking to them and you get to say everything you want to say. And if you cry, that's okay, they need to understand that life isn't sunshine and roses and mommies cry sometimes.
